Just like New Year’s, I love the start of a new birth year. For me it’s a natural reflection point and an opportunity to keep what’s working and look towards what needs some adjusting. I don’t heap heavy change or demands on myself but more take a moment of gratitude for where I am and realign myself with what matters most.
I wish for this year to hold grounding points to keep me in my lane but moments of freedom for continued self discovery. I want walk the line of confidence and humility. I want to be proud of who I am and the decisions I make but also humble enough to admit when I’m wrong or need to make some shifts knowing both are needed to know the other.
I wish lightness, permission to not know and opportunity to be. I’m learning so much of life is lived in between black and white. Rather than wishing for higher contrast I want to find joy in the middle tones.
When life feels heavy, rather than add more weight to my worries I wish to cast them at the feet of my Father, knowing He’s more than capable. I want to feel the sun on my face and the earth under my feet without the melancholy cocktail I often serve myself. Things will be hard and some days will feel dark but don’t loose perspective, darling. Keep the blinds open and the light will find you.
I want to trust my gut knowing if my gut isn’t speaking it’s not time yet. Forcing something never serves anyone but I know I’ll never regret patience. God’s walked me through fire before and hasn’t dropped me and I know he won’t start now. I want to be open and let life flow through me knowing it’s gently carving out a way even if I can’t see it yet. It will unfold in time.
My sweet kids are growing so fast it hurts. I feel the sting of our ‘lasts’ happening and not even recognizing it. I don’t want life to overshadow the dimpled knuckles before they fade and the charming bedtime conversations before they dissolve. Although I can’t stop time I can pay attention. I wish for this year to offer simplicity and play to make time feel like it froze, even if it was just for moment.
When my inner dialogue is playing out like a boxing match, I will never cower and back down. I will step into the ring, never shying away from what I know to be true. I want to hold my thoughts captive that don’t aid my better self. I will speak kind, gentle, strong thoughts of belief, truth and love into my mind.
And lastly, I wish ‘enough’ into this year. I want to know that who I am, is enough. When one day falls into the next, still I want to claim ‘enough’. Not too much or too little but ‘enough’ for me, for my kids, for my family, my friends, my relationships, my abilities, my mission…I am enough just as I am.
Cheers to the next 365, my friends.